I've been feeling stressed and agitated and anxious and just not like myself the passed week or so. I dread going to work and I get mad at people pretty easily especially when I don't feel heard or respected. I get worked up and overreact over the littlest things. I cry. Don't I sound fun to be around? My books say that my moods should be stable and I should feel emotionally better than I did earlier on in my pregnancy, but I feel the opposite. I was fine before and now I'm a little out of sorts. I'm happy with my life and my job and I am beyond excited to meet Sunny and yet I am completely overwhelmed and nervous and scared. Am I going to need a c-section? If so, is everything going to go okay? Is Sunny healthy? Am I going to be able to get everything done before she gets here? Do I have everything I need for her? Will I be a good mom? Will I be able to take care of Sunny on my own once Brandon goes back to work? Where should we put the kitty litter box? When am I going to have time to buy more mochi ice cream?
I know I need to chill because I had a small panic attack at work today due to my anger towards a certain evil gym owner. It was then that I realized that my body can't take all of this stress right now. I need to relax and be confident that everything will work out because, as my mom says, it always does. I have to let things go and move on. I need to realize that all I can do is my best. I need to go to bed.
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You sound JUST like me at about 6 weeks ago! Ask your cousin, I was horrible to be around. There was too much going on, so much that I felt like I didn't have time for anything. Everything felt so overwhelming I wasn't even able to start. I was insanely worried about Ciaran, about delivery, about my ability to cope with just about everything. You're not alone! And your emotions will be back under relative control soon enough. The one thing that has remained is my deep, concern for Ciaran... is he moving enough? Am I squishing him when I tend over? WHEN THE HECK WILL THIS BABY COME OUT???
Thanks for saying that - I feel much more normal now. Everyday I wonder the same thing about you - has Ciaran arrived yet? :)
No kid yet, and at my now-weekly visit the Doctor said that I'm not even close. So I have another appointment next week, where she mentioned in her notes that we would "discuss induction."
Incidentally, she also mentioned something about drilling for oil while she checked me. That was weird.
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