Stating the obvious

Whenever I eat a pickle, which I am doing right now, I feel like a cliche. I had some ice cream earlier and a meltdown at Target this afternoon. Am I pregnant or what?

All Hail Caesar!

We had an appointment with Dr. Silverman today and now we have an answer - Sunny will be delivered via c-section. My placenta moved a little, but it's still right on my cervix. It would be too dangerous for me to go into labor so a c-section will be scheduled. We'll know the exact date within the next couple weeks, but it will happen when I'm between 36 and 37 1/2 weeks which will be between August 18 and August 27. The day before the scheduled date I'll have an amniocentesis to check the development of Sunny's lungs. If they're good, we'll go ahead with the delivery the next day. If not, we'll wait a couple days. I've been preparing myself for this, so I'm doing okay. It's just nice to finally know.

On a happier note, Sunny is looking fabulous! She's five and a half pounds already! No wonder everyone who sees me thinks I'm ready to pop. I got myself a big baby! I saw her head on the ultrasound and commented to the technician that it looked big. She said that she usually doesn't say anything, but yes, her head is big. That's my girl! She had her hands up in front of her face as usual, but we were able to see her big cheeks. I can't wait to get my hands on those sweet cheeks!

Pregzilla

I've calmed down a bit. I don't feel as overwhelmed and I'm not nearly as angry as I was. I'm not sure what was going on, but Brandon has cleverly coined that particular side of me as 'Pregzilla'. It's pretty accurate, too. I felt overly deserving of people's respect because I'm pregnant dammit! I'm huge and uncomfortable and I'm carrying a child! I must say, though, that I think I was pretty good about not getting pissed off at people I know. My anger was pretty much directed towards strangers and gym owners. And the occasional husband. Sorry, honey.

Here's a nice example: the other day at lunch I went to Babies R Us and walked around a bit because that's what you do when you're pregnant. I then went to Costco, which is right next door, to buy fruit because I love fruit and it's so freaking cheap there. When I was loading said fruit into the trunk of my car I noticed that two cars that were parked in the 'Stork Parking' in front of Babies R Us were being driven by people who were definitely not pregnant. Oh, was I livid. I actually drove my car over to where a couple was getting into their car, rolled down the window and said to the lady "Because you parked here, I couldn't." But before I could even get the whole sentence out the woman flicked her wrist at me and said something like "Ayyye". Rude. Then I turned to the very confused looking man getting into the driver's seat and yelled "I'm pregnant!" Then there was nothing left to do but drive away and apologize to my unborn daughter for being so insane.

But, like I said, I'm better. I can't say that I'm completely sane because, let's be honest, I never will be. But I'm better. I think. I don't know, you might still want to be super extra nice to me just in case. Hey, I'm just looking out for you.

A Shower Teaser

An honest vent

I've been feeling stressed and agitated and anxious and just not like myself the passed week or so. I dread going to work and I get mad at people pretty easily especially when I don't feel heard or respected. I get worked up and overreact over the littlest things. I cry. Don't I sound fun to be around? My books say that my moods should be stable and I should feel emotionally better than I did earlier on in my pregnancy, but I feel the opposite. I was fine before and now I'm a little out of sorts. I'm happy with my life and my job and I am beyond excited to meet Sunny and yet I am completely overwhelmed and nervous and scared. Am I going to need a c-section? If so, is everything going to go okay? Is Sunny healthy? Am I going to be able to get everything done before she gets here? Do I have everything I need for her? Will I be a good mom? Will I be able to take care of Sunny on my own once Brandon goes back to work? Where should we put the kitty litter box? When am I going to have time to buy more mochi ice cream?

I know I need to chill because I had a small panic attack at work today due to my anger towards a certain evil gym owner. It was then that I realized that my body can't take all of this stress right now. I need to relax and be confident that everything will work out because, as my mom says, it always does. I have to let things go and move on. I need to realize that all I can do is my best. I need to go to bed.

Kiki and Deb

I only found out days after the fact that my aunt Kiki (my mom's sister) and sister-in-law Deb (my brother Dan's wife) were the ones who threw me my shower in Syracuse! I really can't thank them enough. They are both such wonderful people who have been there for me whenever I need them. I am so overcome with gratitude. It was so thoughtful and generous of them to plan such a fun party. And it was fun even though I was only a head on a computer screen. I was animated, though! And interactive!

I also go to crappy websites

Okay, I admit it - I go Perez Hilton's website at least once a day. Now that I'm pregnant and have baby on the brain I also go to the Celebrity Baby Blog and that's where I found this photo:



















So, what you're trying to tell me is that Joey Lawrence is straight, married to a woman and the father of a little girl. Interesting.

Baby Update

Our first childbirth class was on Sunday. It was good, not awesome, but good. There were lots of diagrams of the cross-section of a pregnant woman, which was interesting to see and we learned some relaxation techniques. The instructor seems nice and very knowledgeable, though I can't tell you how many times she said "...but you'll learn about that next week" or "...but I'll go into that more in our fourth class." Also, the class ended 45 minutes early without explanation, but it wasn't such a bad thing. The material was interesting, but I couldn't imagine sitting there much longer. Brandon and I felt like we were in 7th grade again - sweet! We get out of class early!

We had another great doctor's appointment this morning. Our OB is happy with Sunny's growth and her heartbeat is nice and strong. She is in a head down position, which is ideal if I'm able to give birth vaginally. I haven't gotten on the scale since my last appointment, so I was interested to see how much weight I've gained. It was pretty much exactly what I thought it would be, so I was happy. I eat well and take care of myself, so I wasn't worried. I could certainly stand to work out more, but it's so freaking hot out and I get out of breath easily these days and I'm so busy at work and at home I'm busy getting everything ready for the baby and I'm tired all the time and and and...

July 2008

I've looked better, but how cute is my mom?

My large 30 week body

Ah, the third trimester. People warned me about it, but I didn't listen. Well, I kind of listened, but I try to focus on the positive things people tell me and not the negative ones. I know things will be different when the baby comes and my life is going to change and I'll be getting significantly less sleep, thanks. Anyway, my belly is no longer small - it's gigantic and it's going to keep getting bigger. According to my baby book, for the next month or so Sunny is going to be gaining a half pound a week and I'll be gaining a pound a week. The increased weight of my little girl has caused my body to take on some lovely third trimester characteristics. Some aren't so lovely, others are kind of amusing. I've succumbed to the pregnant lady waddle. I used to try to walk normally, now I could care less. This is especially true when I have to pee and am on the way to the bathroom. I get toilet tunnel vision I have to go so bad. I'm super thirsty all day long, but I can go for hours without getting hungry. I'll eat half a sandwich and be uncomfortably full for a good two hours. Getting up from a seated position has become a challenge. The other night when we were out to dinner a man from the table next to me offered his hand for support and I took it. Thank you, kind sir. I've gotten a lot better at accepting and asking for help. I admit it - I'm not as agile as I used to be, but I'm carrying a precious load! And that's what we've decided to name Sunny...Precious Load. Isn't it beautiful?

I watch crappy television

The other day Brandon and I were sitting in the family room trying to get cool (right now it's the only room in the house with air conditioning). He was reading and I was watching television. I am slightly ashamed to say that Tori and Dean, that show on the Oxygen channel about Tori Spelling and her husband, was on. Tori, who looked to be about five months pregnant, and Dean were at her doctor's office to find out the sex of their unborn baby. I was looking down at something when I heard Brandon say "Dr. Silverman!" I looked up thinking that Brandon meant to say "That guy looks like our fetal doctor, Dr. Silverman" or "That guy does what our fetal doctor does". But, no. It was our Dr. Silverman doing an ultrasound on Tori Spelling. Ha!

I asked my friend at work about it the next day who also saw Dr. Silverman when she was pregnant and she wasn't surprised at all. She said that he's the best fetal doctor in LA and maybe the country. Who knew?

The mom has landed

My mom has come to see me! It's so wonderful to have her here. She arrived yesterday and we have been busy ever since. She's so unbelievably good to Sunny and me. She bought Sunny some cute clothes yesterday and today we picked out fabric for the quilt she's going to make her. She's helping me with my nesting, too. She has lots of great ideas for our new place. We have some storage problems so tomorrow we're heading to Ikea - land of storage solutions. Right now she's adding a maternity panel to my favorite shorts that used to belong to Brandon. It will be so nice to be able to wear a pair of shorts! Skirts are nice and good for work, but shorts are my weekend staple and I miss them. But enough about shorts. My mom is here and I love it and I'll be sad when she leaves, but she'll be back when Sunny is born to help us even more. Not sure how I can express how much I love and appreciate her, but I have an idea...